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Fan Area => The Hydlaa Plaza => Topic started by: Xyle on June 16, 2005, 05:32:37 pm

Title: My Absence - the explanation
Post by: Xyle on June 16, 2005, 05:32:37 pm: Hey there, everyone; this is Xenia. I would like to explain where i have been and what has happened over the last few months.

Well, to begin; i didnt leave Planeshift under the best of circumstances. There were quite demeaning rumors going around about me. I wont say what the rumors were, nor will i name any names. Just know that it was a factor in my leaving.

The other thing, however, i will explain. During the last few months, i was becoming depressed and uninterested in life. For those who knew me back then; i was a cheerful person, on the outside. On the inside, i was suffering from drastic moodchanges. One moment, i would be extremely happy and cheerful; the next, i would be very very depressed and...empty. It got so bad that i was seriously considering ending it all for good, by any means neccessary. But not to worry, i am fine now.

Two days before i commited the most unforgivable thing in my life; i was sent a message by my then unknown soulmate. This person quite literally saved my life. This person talked to me at the lowest point of my life, and also gave me the courage to go on. I didnt know it at the time, but this person was my soulmate. I am not certain if this person wants their name posted; so i will not. But this person was what kept me going, and still does today. This person is my everything.

And so, for months we talked, and discovered we were meant for each other. We fell in love.

I also made some personal changes in my life. After thinking long and hard, i decided to quit feeling sorry for the things i had no control over. I was made this way, and theres nothing i could do to change that. So i truly accepted it and stopped dwelling on it, I started looking to the future.

and so that is why i have been gone for a few months; i was getting my life back on track. I now feel as if ive been given a second chance, and i will not waste it.

To close; i am doing good right now;me and this person are in love, and ive become more open. I no longer go from extreme cheerfulness to severe depression. For the most part, i am always in a good mood :)

Well; thank you for reading this, and if you have any questions; just ask me ingame when you see me. Thank you once more, everyone.

Xenia Dragoon
Elder Claw in Felines\' Lair (and a changed person :))
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Post by: John_Thazer on June 16, 2005, 05:48:34 pm: Quote
Originally posted by Xyle
The other thingm howeverm i will explain. During the last few months, i was becoming depressed and uninterested in life. For those who knew me back then; i was a cheerful person, on the outside. On the inside, i was suffering from drastic moodchanges. One moment, i would be extremely happy and cheerful; the next, i would be very very depressed and...empty. It got so bad that i was seriously considering ending it all for good, by any means neccessary. But not to worry, i am fine now.

Hm...I felt like that coupla years ago...:P Ah, well, welcome back!
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Post by: Lordbug on June 16, 2005, 05:51:28 pm: YAY! Glad you\'re back :D We all missed you alot!

*must thank Xenia\'s soulmate for getting sence on Xenia\'s head
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Post by: Kwip on June 16, 2005, 06:13:57 pm: Well welcome back and I am glad that your life is back together, I hope it remains that way. Cheers and remember to hold a party :D
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Post by: hitancrias on June 16, 2005, 06:40:00 pm: Xenia, I\'m very glad to hear you\'re feeling better now. Welcome back!
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Post by: Jekkar on June 16, 2005, 10:53:58 pm: Welcome back Xenia ! Yes good your feeling better and good to have you back . Hope to see you online soon .
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Post by: Efflixi Aduro on June 17, 2005, 12:31:09 am: Xenia is back!!!! :D :) :))

Yay!!! One olbee dragged back, 1000 to go. :P

Xenia I think you would better know me as KillerV though. :)
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Post by: Kaseijin on June 17, 2005, 12:54:31 am: don\'t think i was around when you were..but i am glad things are going well for you, whoever you are.
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Post by: leji on June 17, 2005, 01:01:20 am: Xenia\'s back !!! *Turns on the music* Fiesta !!!
*hands a hundred fluffy wibbles to Xenia* *hugs* *hugs*

YEEEEHAAAAAAA !!!!

Thank you soulmate, whoever you are !!
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Post by: Moogie on June 17, 2005, 01:08:29 am: So glad you\'re doing well these days Xenia, just never forget you have many good friends who will always be there for you no matter what. :)

*Luv and hugs*
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Post by: Ghostslayer on June 17, 2005, 02:53:37 am: Good to see you back Xenia :D
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Post by: lynx_lupo on June 17, 2005, 11:22:12 am: I don\'t think we\'ve met, but wb! Every cheerful hand on deck is needed, every whinner dropped off... shore. ;)
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Post by: Phinehas on June 18, 2005, 07:36:29 pm: Well well well, if it isn\'t Xenia... I can\'t say that I was aware that you were \"gone\" per se. I was aware that you weren\'t around, but the idea of you having \"left\" never really entered my consciousness that I can recall. Despite that, welcome back, and don\'t listen to rumors about yourself, what other people think shouldn\'t determine your self-worth.