I have been involved in so much since my escape...I do not know where to go now. Vod?l has not talked to me since I was a child, yet he has spoken to Setill and Narita...why must he abandon me? Why am I forced to wander on my own now? I do not even know if what I am doing is right or not...but, I will not betray Vod?l, regardless if he has changed his mind or not since then. I found truth in what he said, but if he no longer believes in this cause, I will have to do this alone. If Setill and Narita were told the same thing as I, then I know he has not forgotten me...but, some things have changed since then. They were told to use the power of the Dark Crystal, since he must have found my actions to be too violent. I can understand, since what I am doing now is not much different from the fighting those foolish Crystal-Borns involve themselves in. I have agreed to use the Dark Crystal along with them, but I do not seem to know the results of this as clearly as I did back when I was simply killing people off as I saw them. Setill and Narita do not see how foolish the others are, and they insist on using them for their own desires. This is not what I want...but I must comply until then...
I can remember back to my childhood...back to when I began to hate the others. My mother was of the Elven bloodline, but my father was one of the proud Diaboli. My father and I had a special bond, and we did not ever forget eachother. He always used to give me what I wanted, he attended to my every need, and he had the trias to back it up. My mother, however, only got drunk at the taverns, until my father began to stop giving her the trias to buy ale. Apperantly, she had hired a mercenary with what little trias she had left, and was going to pay him full price once he had murdered my father. She did not care, she would just find someone new while she was drunk, and mooch off him for his trias...those were sick times, and even now they continue to influence this world. I do not understand why people cannot see their faults, but I will save them from their own demise, I will use the power of the Dark Crystal...if only I had known of it sooner, I would not have had to suffer so.
This is all the fault of the Gods in this land. Vod?l\'s reasons for leaving Laanx and Talad in charge of Yliakum are still unknown to me. I guess he thought that they could take care of themselves, or maybe he saw further, after this world would destroy itself so that he could create new life. Regardless, this current time is a living hell...after both of my parents had died, my father murdered, and my mother betrayed and killed by her next husband, I wandered the streets of Hydlaa, trying to find truth. Back then, I believed that my parents were perfect, that they knew what was best, and even though my father was a nice man, his only mistake was marrying that woman, and that was his one most deadly mistake. My father did not believe in Gods, fore all they did was use people to fight their own personal wars, and they did not care how many lives were lost. If only Talad had not foolishly thought he could use the Azure Sun without knowledge of the power he was dealing with, this world could have maybe prospered.
I had finally walked to the point where I would just fall to the ground and die. My feet were so tired, I had not eaten in days, and no one even knew or cared about me. I woke up hours after falling unconcious, thinking that I was dead. I was not, but I was in grave danger. A rogue had found me, and he was threatening to kill me if I did not give him everything I had on me. I did not have anything, though, just a loaf of bread that had rotted in my sack from the intense heat. He was about to slit my throat, but something amazing happened...his body begin to glow, and he was floating in the air, like magic. I had heard tales of magic glyphs being created by Talad, but this did not seem like his doing. There was another...I looked, and far behind the rogue, was a strange being. The rogue\'s body soon seperated, and by that, I mean that all of the joints in his body were disconnected from eachother, and the parts of his body fell to the ground, but blood did not spill. The man walked up to me, offering me a piece of meat. I said nothing, and I began to chew on it quickly. It tasted so good, regardless of it being raw. As I was eating, the man told me his name; Vod?l.
I stopped chewing, and repeated the name in my head. I had heard the name from my father, he told me it was the only name that the Diaboli could trust, the only God...I was still very confused, fore the God looked like an ordinary person, though he did not look like any kind of creature in Yliakum, just his shape, and form. He told me of his purpose for saving me, he said that I had suffered much too greatly, and I had seen so much in this world. Vod?l was right, I had been through too much to keep going, but he said that I could be the one to end that suffering for everyone else. I asked him how, but he simply told me of his mistakes. He said that he regretted telling Laanx how to use the Azure Sun, fore all she did was create life for her own greedy reasons. The life she created worshipped her greatly, but because of not teaching Talad of the same power, they competed against eachother. Soon, the competitions of power turned into wars, and both of the Gods\' followers began to fight against eachother, just to end up killing themselves. They had suffered far enough, and Vod?l said that it was up to me to end their suffering.
I did not know what to say at first, but I just accepted what he told me. Then, I awoke, realizing that it was all a dream. His words struck me though, and I knew what I had to do. There was no way to save them with simple speeches and logic, so I had to use force. I trained for the rest of my childhood, making sure to be ready for when I would make my attack. I became quite skilled in the sword, and in case I would drop it, I carried daggers as a last resort. Though it was a sinful act, I knew that Vod?l would forgive me for training in three of the six Ways. The Ways were not sinful, but the glyphs to control them were made by Talad, which I just thought was the one good thing he did for this world. I trained until my arms felt like they would fall off, so it was then I knew I was ready. I walked to the nearest town, and once I arrived in one, I began to slaughter people. They all ran away, screaming, but I knew it was either them, or every other person they would lay eyes on. Their suffering would come to and end, and I was sure to not forget even the smallest child. They were to all go to Vod?l, where they would face his trials. I did not care what happened to them afterwards, but all I knew was that I should not let anyone escape.
For a while, my progress was greatly improving. I saved thousands of people every day, and I felt like a hero to our kind. I left the Ynnwn and the Diaboli in this world, because they did not sin like all the others, Vod?l did not need to trial them. I especially went after the Lemurs, fore they were the essence of Laanx herself. Laanx had denied her femininity when Talad had unleashed a devilish power from the Azure Sun upon her face, but she was still female, regardless of her looks. The Lemur were just like her, thinking they could control those weaker than them, thinking they could get away with whatever crime they commited. I made sure they were all dead, so that Vod?l could severely punish them. I looked at the blood on my blade, beginning to question if what I was doing was right or not. I knew that Vod?l would speak to me again if I did something wrong, so I pushed away the thoughts, and continued my actions.
Laanx had finally gained word of my actions, the remaining Lemur had contacted her with some strange power before he was killed. An army marched in my direction, and I knew that this was what Vod?l was talking about. Laanx would force them all to fight me, just so I wouldn\'t kill anymore of her followers. If only I had known sooner...Laanx herself had come with the army, knowing that sending in only the few remaining Lemurs wouldn\'t be enough. I stood in front of the army, and Laanx looked at me, as I looked at all of the Lemur, each one of them looked frightened. Laanx\'s face was hidden, so I could not look into her eyes, I knew she was full of hatred, though. She used a dark power, and my body was hung inside of a ring of fire. My limbs began to burn, and I screamed as loud as I could, the pain was too intense...my body soon burned to ashes, but that was not the end.
I opened my eyes, and my surroundings were nothing but a dark void. I was standing on some sort of floating rock, and as I looked down, the space below was also complete nothingness. I was so frightened...I felt like this was the end. I could not reach to Vod?l, I was so far away. I began to hear screaming, and it echoed for a very long time. Something reached out of the dark void, and it grabbed my arm. Other shadows began to sprout from the same spot, each leaching onto me, pulling me in. I screamed again, and tried to grab onto the rock to hold my place. I did not have the strength, and my hand slipped off...I sunk into the darkness, and that was where I stayed for such a long time...every second felt like I was dying, but I could not actually die...I remained there, being tormented by the shadows. I later found out that they were the souls of those I had slain, Vod?l had sent them all here after their trials of death.
I managed to escape the shadows, but the world is nothing like I remember it. There are less wars, but now there are even temples built in the name of Laanx, and Talad. The religions had gone so far, that even people dedicated themselves to the Gods, painting their skin with special symbols of the Black Flame, thinking that it would bestow them with power. During my time in the shadows, I found a book in the Death Realm library, where I had been taught the secrets of purification. It seemed like some kind of book written by a religious fool, but it was actually written by Vod?l himself, or so said the cover. He must have learned of my misfortune, and placed that book there so that I could escape. As I read, my body began to glow with a strange light. I felt great pains in my head, and my entire body. I began to grow horns, and a tail, as if I were turning into a Diaboli. Runes began to appear on my flesh, and I thought they were some kind of evil magic, but they were actually Vod?l\'s doings. The book had somehow removed the Elven blood from my veins, and those runes sealed the Elven traits away. My skin had somehow remained red, regardless of my new Diaboli form. I was not Diaboli, nor Ynnwn, but I was a Pure Ynnwn, one not tainted with the Elf\'s sins. I was relieved, I could begin to stop worrying about my about my Elven ancestors\' actions...
Looking back at this, I now know what I must do. The Crystal-Borns will be destroyed, and the Dark Crystal will help me do it...
