Sorry to disappoint you. But I feel like this is important. To me. I'm not precisely a selfless person.
The thing is, you've seen me coming on and off the game. The last month or so you've been seeing me less and less. Well, good news is, I'm not dying. Bad (or better, to some) news, is I'm actually going to quit this for quite a good time. The short reason? I need to get my life on track, and PS isn't precisely what it used to be when I joined.
The long reason? Brace yourselves.
When I started playing PS, I was a 17-18 years old kid starting Architecture at a somewhat prestigious (and equally pricey) university here where I live. I needed something to fill the void inbetween drawings and calculus, and WoW was too expensive for someone like me. Namely, I couldn't afford a membership with 0 money. It's the time and money paradigm: you get enough money, but not enough time, and vice-versa. Anyways, I found PlaneShift. Boy was I thrilled. I knew little to no English (despite good grades back in "high school" as most of you would call it), but the visuals were enticing, and the ambiance was so great, I couldn't help but get roped in.
This is where it all started going downhill. At the moment I didn't realize, but I was signing my downfall from a possibly bright -or not- future. You could say I regret it now, but I'm not so sure. The thing is, thanks to me getting addicted to PlaneShift, I was starting to fall behind in my grades, and missing important university appointments. Worse came to worst, obviously, and I ended up spiralling into a spiral of depression and anxiety that has left me with mood swings, overweight, and all around bitterness.
Better late than never, they say, but I'd rather this had never happened. I'm 23 now, it's been 5 years since I started going down, and it's about time I start going up. To put it short: I'm starting to get in my prime, and if I were living in the Middle Age, I'd only have about five years left of life, ten if I were lucky. So this has got to change. It's about time to change my life, turn it around and veer away from this path of ignorant self-destruction through which I trod now. So here it is: my goodbye.
I've met a lot of people in PlaneShift through the years, and while I can't remember all of them, I can say that
and I wouldn't even be lying.
However, at the top of my head there are some people that I do remember well, who have helped me more than done me harm:
- Roled: you're awesome. Well, everyone is, but you're awesome on a whole different level. However, I have learned that polemics are only good when kept to real life, and only where they matter. There's no use trying to argue with a stupid person: they'll bring you down to their level and then beat you up with experience. So my advice to you would be to say "[REDACTED] it all" and enjoy your virtual life while you can.
- Sulaika: it always seemed to me that you'd always be there to listen if I had needed you to, but I never made use of that service. Sorry for having been so mean from time to time, and I hope you have a very happy life both in real life and in game. Looks like you will, in the end.
- LigH: You're tiresome, pedantic, somehow bitter, and too much of a perfectionist. But I wouldn't like you if you were a slightest bit different, and I've learned to put up with your quirks and enjoy your company. Our shorts RPs together were always meaningful and constructive, and I can't forget that. May prosperity finds your way.
- The dwarves from the Way of the Hammer: If I had to thank you one by one I'd end up listing an almost infinite amount of reasons why I wouldn't leave this game, but since it's my intention to -because of real life reasons- I'll have to say a thank you to everyone at the same time. Whenever I needed help, you were there. Whenever I wanted to roleplay, or set something up, you were there. When I was bored you'd chat with me, and you always put up with my bragging about my high quality crafted goods. Congratulations, you may now try to have the monopoly. I'll miss you all, guys.
- Naadah: Well, I know it was short, but I liked it while it lasted. I just wish it hadn't ended so abruptly. You're a great roleplayer, and you're up there with the legends of old, believe me. Somehow I always thought you were and alt of them, and you probably are. I'll actually miss you.
- Kaerli: Yes, I haven't forgotten you. You're the worst challenge a person can get. I'm just sorry I couldn't help you any further, and that my patience wouldn't let me work more in depth alongside you to make you more... bearable. But you're taking the right path. Listen to what people say. And actually think about it.
- Wulfar: <3. That should be enough.
Special mentions:
- Illysia: wow, such bitter, very sass, amaze cate so mean. PS needs roleplayers like you, though.
- Taya: You're not around anymore it seems, but you know I'm very thankful for you know what.
- Mariana/Evirea: wow, such bitter, very sass, amaze lizarde so mean (x2). You already know what I think about you. Sorry for being an ass.
- Sarras: Your most creative ways of getting banned never cease to amaze me. Keep it up, you magnificient troll
- Anyone I might have forgotten: sorry, my memory is like some sort of colander. But I love y'all.
And to a very, very special person, I hope you finally realize your mistakes, and make your projects into the great ideas that you sought them to be originally. No hard feelings, dud.
Here's a kitten saying goodbye so you feel less sad (in case you do):
