Don\'t apologise to us. Things happen in life that are beyond anyone\'s control, and how we each deal with major things, such as breaking up with our partners, is different. I\'m sure nobody here blames you for leaving; you thought you would be letting your friends down by telling them it was over.
But they will understand if they are decent people and true friends. If not, you are much better off without them. Either way, you made a good decision to come back and let us know what happened. Thank you for that.

Hopefully you can now move on and leave the past behind. Remember it, but don\'t dwell on it. That\'s the best advice I can give.
