I was torn between posting here or not, after Draklar showed me... This thread is making me cry...
I\'m not one to leave a place and turn up a week later as if I never decided to go. I think those who do that never really thought about their decision, not like I have. And maybe all they really wanted was the attention, to know that some people care about them. I didn\'t post a thread about me or wave it around looking for love or thanks, but... to those who\'ve posted here, and any who post after I\'m gone, you can\'t possibly know how much I appreciate it. I always have.
I\'ve never been perfect. I\'ve had many enemies, but I never stopped trying to make every single person my friend. And I think many people were my friends, superficially or not, and I definitely come out of this community now with some of the greatest friends I\'ve ever known, online or not. How can I say how eternally thankful I am to every single friend I\'ve ever had here, those who helped me when I needed help, those who I had fun with, those who talked with me on lonely nights?
I\'ve made many mistakes. Some of which, I\'ll never live down or forget. I got close to people I shouldn\'t have. And I distanced myself from pure angels out of the fear of my own inadequacy. I tried to pretend I\'m stronger than I was- and when the battles came to me, I often broke down, depressed, in tears, lost. I was never really cut out to do such a hard job as moderating, and... it definitely changed me. I lost much of my goodwill, my softness... I know that, because I remember how I used to be. So much happier...
I digress. My point is that I leave here stronger, more mature. My sense of fun and humour remain, and I\'m still generous enough for the world I see in my eyes. But PS was a learning experience for me; it threw down the veils of my niavety (and in some cases tore them to shreds). But I have many more good memories of this place than I do bad. I remember all the guilds that took me in and the people I knew in them. In particular, Felines Lair, will always have a place in my heart, long after it\'s gone. And Ayshe, who became my closest friend in the world. And still is.
Infact, many people will still know me on MSN, and any friend of mine is fully welcome to add me to their list, but I do have a condition. Know that I\'m no longer a PSer. I\'m no longer a developer, a moderator, a GM. I don\'t exist here anymore- so please, I don\'t want to talk about PlaneShift.
I don\'t mind reminiscing about how it used to be, but I\'d rather not be told \"current events\" like whoever zanzibar has decided to pick a fight with next, or what tyrade of superiority Verliit has gone on now. That stuff is no longer valid topic of interest for me, and that\'s my one single request if you are to add moogiefluff AT gmail DOT com to your MSN.
Ouch, I didn\'t mean to write a speech, but I couldn\'t just not say goodbye to everyone who deserves to know I appreciate them. But now it\' time to go... I\'ll miss you.
Oh, one last thing... Shanak is the single person who ensured my stay here for so many years. Without him standing there in the labyrinth to greet me and answer my newbie questions, I would have become lost, bored, and left just as quickly as I came. My entire existance as a PSer hinged on this one person. If he ever comes back, please let him know for me how much I appreciate him in particular.
Thanks.
~Moogie
