OK, as this is about love in general i\'d like to tell you how it\'s on the other side, with a manly friend \"liking\" you!
It was maybe the first school year\'s month when a strange guy went up to me. He acted strange as i was reading Science Illustrated, and when he fianlly came forth to me he asked where the library was. As i was sitting in the library he went a way 3 seconds later with a friend coming to his rescue, walking away in haste.
Later that day i was scribbling on an essay, reading some \"modern art\" [comics, ok?] he once again came forth to me and asked what i was doing, a bit more slefconfident. I told him i was reading World of Warcraft comics and he seemed unhealthily interested. As i had seen his way of behaving around me and i did so with the girls, i asked him if he was into me and i guess you know what he said. So, as i am an openminded person i was happy for SOMEONE liking me, even though it was a mate of the same sex. I didn\'t tell him i was straight as i didn\'t know at that time [just gone into the \"i am a teenager, what else?\" phase and wanted to try something new, and how i felt with guys].
Because of his flattering answer at the computers we and a group of other \"outcasts\" started a friend gang, with him inviting me home to him every day. He assured me, and even my mother, nothing was going to happen between him and me[many see me as a guy who\'s looking like 5 years older and he was maybe 29].
Now, this guy which i now knew as \"Leif\" was a bit awkward in sense. He was very nice[can\'t even use that expression as to validate how NICE he was!] and at first i liked him. He seemed to act like i did, but he had something fishy going. He seemed to work up a strategy on how to make me fall in love with him [you know, guys ;P] and i discovered it. I lay undercover with my discovery until one night when we, the gang and i, had our very first feast together. We drank a bit. Some got as pissed as monkeys high on crack and someone actually kissed someone else[please don\'t ask me what sexes, cause i wasn\'t looking and wouldn\'t want to be reminded]. Now the party finally got out of hand, and as the nice and witty person i am i tried to sort it out, but my energy after 2 months of socializing had taken its turn and i was burned out with Leif\'s attempt to free me from my straight nature. I simply had to get out of this gang. The problems they had had seemed minor from the start but it soon got out of hand. I tried to get Leif ad the other to understand[leaving a person who\'s loving you is HARD! and so did the nice persons in the gang] this wasn\'t for the sake of the gang, this was the sake of me trying to keep my mind intact!
With a few sessions with the school shrink i finally had time to talk out with the guy and i finally discovered my true turn to the sexes. I was sure straight and am proud to say it just as a happy homosexual would\'ve said it! \"pride to the people!\".
Though, i still have no prejudices or grudges against homosexual men or women i\'m not as naive as i was once upon a time, and i hope everyone will enjoy others just as they are! I value the one who see\'s the best in people! My advice is think twice. First critisize yourself for having such thoughts about a total stranger sitting on that bar-stool, second: think of yourself as the poor guy having to take looks and words from total strangers passing past you
\"Look at that Nigger, why isn\'t he home in the ghetto\'s\" \"Yuck, i hate homo\'s. They\'re soo disgusting!\"
You can joke about them or even talk in friendly tone but the words will always be the same.
Think twice, think wise!
[Maybe this was a ranting thread. Sorry:( Wasn\'t meant to. Meant this in good will to the supressed ones. Delete this post if you like...]
