[[[ A personal note: I do not know if this will evolve into something bigger or not and if this is the right place (Sorry if not). But feel free to move it if it isn't. The reason you find all of these papers is because my character likes to express her thoughts through writing (though she hasn't written too much honestly, yet). It usually clears her mind and/or (as in this case) helps her to find what she thinks might be the right thing to do ]]]
***** The RP *****
[In Xiosia’s Garden, near to the trees roots are laying three slighly crumpled pieces of paper. They are all folded in a similar way and also crumbled kind of similar which suggests that they were together when they were put down or lost here. Close to them is what seems to be a dried puddle of blood. You also notice bloodspillings all over the trees roots and its stem. The papers are laying on the grass, parts of them soaked with blood.]
[The first page you find reads:]
Oh Gods! Why did you hurt me that much! What did I do? And, moreover, what did Qia do that she deserves such a bad fate! I hate you! Do you hear me, I hate you so much!
Oh my... My soul is torn apart as is my heart. I have lost my love, my soulmate! I know it! I can feel it! And what should I do now! What???
Just some days ago, Qia my love and me we were gladly sitting by each other, kissing each other!!! And now look at me!!! I am a picture of misery before your mighty eyes...
Oh my love, why did you have to leave me? I can't cry enough for what the Gods had done to us. Oh my... how I hate them.
So, what can I do now? What cause of living is there!?
She's gone, she's gone, SHE'S
GONE!!!!!!
QIA IS GONE FOREVER!!!! AND IT IS YOUR FAULT! DAMNED GODS, I SPIT ON YOU!
I MUST FIND A WAY TO GET HER BACK! I MUST! OR ELSE THERE WILL BE NO PEACE ANYMORE FOR ME OR ANYBODY ELSE!
But how... if she's gone...
I will have to think about it and if it takes the rest of my miserable life. Maybe if I go to the mines, doing nothing but stupidly nuzzling in the earth, maybe I will get an idea of what I can do...
[The second page is even more wildly drawn than the first. It reads:]
Oh my! My heart is so weak. How can I ever hope to get you back, my dear? Meanwhile I have remembered something... An idea I had short after...
[Several tear drops on the page are evident here before it continues]
oh my, I can't even think about the moment I felt your leaving, the emptiness that swept over me. The....
NO! NOT EMPTYNESS! DARKNESS! AND DARKNESS IS THE WAY I HAVE TO TAKE!
THE DEATH REALM!
YES!
THAT IS THE ONLY PLACE TO GO!
[Here you begin to see lines written in a different hand at some points, as though the writer was having a conversation with his/her-self. Areas of the writing are also crossed out, as though the writer tried to shut out some text.]
careful my dear. I know you are hurt. But fear and darkness may awate you if you take that path.
WHAT!? WHAT'S THIS! YOU! DON'T TELL ME T
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Hush, dear. All I am saying is that I fear for you. Even though you might find her... there might not be left enough of your former self. Not enough to love her as you do no-
DONT'T TELL ME SUCH STUPID THINGS!!!! I WILL *ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS* LOVE HER!!!
And what kind of love could that be!?
NO!!!!!
All I am saying is, take it slow. There may be other ways. ...
NO!!!!! THERE ARE NO OTHER WAYS! AND I *HAVE* TO FIND HER! SHE TRUSTED ME! LOVED ME!
Yes, but not only you...
WHAT! WHAT ARE YOU TELLLING?!?
Xiosia...
WHAT!?! Xi-XIOSIA!.....
Yes, dear. And isn't she a God? And wasn't Qia one of her faithful followers?
YES!!! YES, SHE WAS! BUT... you mean....
Yes, dear.
XIOSIA! YES! I MUST HURRY, TO HER GARDEN!!! YES... maybe... a piece of hope... if nothing else... But, what should I do there? What?!
Devotement my dear... a sacrifice... Give the most precious you have to give. If you really want to go to the Death Realm....
Devotement... YES! OFF TO THE GARDEN! XIOSIA PLEASE HELP!
[Te lower half o the paper is soaked in blood because it laid near the aforementioned puddle of blood]
[The third and final page seems to be not as old. Again you see writings that look different, as if the hand had been controlled by somebody else]
DARKNESS! DARKNESS IS WHAT I HAVE FOUND! AND NO QIA!!!!
Giving up so fast, my poor Fenkii?
NO! I WILL NEVER GIVE UP! I WILL FIND QIA! OR DIE WHILE DOING SO!
So... what are you going to do now?
BLOOD! MORE BLOOD!
If only Xiosia will accept it... now that you are marked...
SHE HAS TO! WHAT ELSE IS THERE!? IF SHE DOES NOT... Oh, DOOM! DAMNATION! AWAITS ME!
Poor fenki... I fear for you... I can only hope that you are forgiven one day for what you did. If only you wouldn't have been so eager to greet darkness...
STOP IT!!! WHAT DO YOU KNOW!? WHERE WERE YOU WHEN QIA LEFT ME ALONE! WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU MORE THAN EVER IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!
I gave my life for you, remember?
OH HAD YOU NEVER GIVEN YOUR LIFE FOR ME! GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE!
Listen-
NO! GO AWAY! LEAVE ME ALONE! I WISH YOU HAD NEVER GIVEN YOUR LIFE FOR ME! I WISH YOU WERE GONE!
I will. For now... but I will always ** w*th*n. Ca*l m* ** yo* *ee* *e..
NO WAY!
DAMMIT! STUPID MROKI!!! WHY DID SHE HAVE TO PLANT THE SEED OF FEAR WITHIN ME! I HATE HER AS WELL! I WISH SHE'D BE GONE FOREVER! AND WHAT MORE MISERY CAN THERE BE THAN WHAT I FEEL NOW!? IMPOSSIBLE!?
STUPID FENKI! WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR!
Yes, yes, I know, but... still...
Oh, stupid fenki as well! Why am I so afraid. Fearing the things that may wait for me! Not darkness. I welcome darkness for it's all I feel in my heart and my soul now.
But there may be more than that, waiting for me... What will be left of me, once I come back? Enough to still feel the love for you my dear Qia?
DAMMIT! WHAT FEAR CAN THERE BE, MORE MIGHTY THAN THE LOSS I FEEL! AND IF I HAVE LOST QIA FOREVER, WHAT GOOD IS MY LOVE FOR! STUPID FENKI! WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR!
Yes, yes, the Death Realm. My only hope now. Magic, Abyss, Darkness, I don't fear you. Whatever it may be, I will welcome you with open arms if you can reunite me with my love... No price is to high for that!
[Near the pieces of paper, in the grass, you see some slightly blackened flowers, sprinkled with the same black fluid and looking withered.]
