"Here's that weirdo ranting and blabbering with his seasonal 'I'm leaving' post, yet he never leaves."
Well, I'm sorry to disappoint you, but I am, indeed, leaving, or at least drastically reducing the times I'm going to log in game. I know, I know I've done this a whole lot of times, but this time I'm very afraid it's for real. I'd like to go, though, in good terms with everyone, because I know the greatness of a man is not measured on how many enemies has he defeated, but on how many has he forgiven and apologised to. But first, my reasons to leave.
It is well known by many of you that I'm not the best person ever. It's not an excuse, since everyone is how they are, but I'd like to explain my behavior first: I've always been slightly reclusive, and the last 2 years I've been battling a depression that consumed me to the point of being unable to do anything at all, leaving me in a rather crappy state, snarky and moody. I'd like to apologize for all the inconveniences I've caused in the past, and hope that you will forgive me, if you think you can. As for my reasons, they're not related to PlaneShift at all, but rather personal.
There have been a series of events in my life that have led to its improvement, luckily. I've found my life vocation, my reason to go on and live and work for me and those who surround me. Due to this, I'll be leaving the paternal household to live 80km away from them, at my current school, and will only visit my parents and brothers on weekends. That, and going out with my old friends will consume most of the time I'll have on weekends. Besides that, I've decided I'd change my habits, especially since my grades haven't been stellar lately: failing two subjects, even if it may seem acceptable to some, is a rather stingy matter to me. I'm decided to change that next trimester, and will dedicate myself in body and soul to improve that and try not to get less than a 60/100 in any subject.
The most important reason to me, though, is my family's state. My brother is currently at the hospital, getting dyalisis regularly. It's a rather touchy matter, since he's going to need a kidney eventually, and meanwhile he's going to need a dyalisis machine at home. I don't know which member of my family will donate it, if there isn't an anonymous donor first, so it will most likely be my mother, who will also be undergoing surgery soon - to repair her knee, practically destroyed due to age and use, using a prothestic knee; my brother, and myself.
I don't know how my life will turn out to be, but I'm certain of one thing: it will turn for the better. I'm studying something I think is great, and my teachers are professionals. Maybe not all my classmates like me, but you can't be in good terms with everyone. That's something I've learned from playing PlaneShift. Which leads me to the next point. Please, don't see this as a way of criticising, but as an apology and a viewpoint.
First off, I'd like to thank many, many of the players that have helped and played with me: LigH, Boni, Neeno (keep up the good work, you two!), Jjairr, Haraun, Minks - what the hell, the whole Felines Lair lot and the full PSDE community; Barike, Sacho, Mariana, Zalya, Elady, Almada, everyone from The Way of the Hammer, the Brotherhood of Talad (hugs and glitterto Lilura!), the Bloodstone Brethren, Teshia, Esorono (<3), and whoever had a good impression of me.
I also would like to thank the GM team for stopping me when I crossed the line (even if I still think they were unfair sometimes, truth be said), the Settings team for welcoming me and giving me a chance of improving the game, and especially Weltall, even if he hates the fact that I use a Mac, and RlyDontKnow. Many many many thanks to Mordaan, Venalan, drJack and Katu, for being great writers and even better bosses ( xP ).
To Talad, a sincere thank you for creating this game and keeping it up, and an idea for the future, also paired with a small critic: focus the game towards the RPers. It's taken a turn for the PLers. Reduce the stats and skills, try to balance how easily can you make money, especially for newbies, and try to overhaul the whole crafting system. I'm sure the Rules team will have interesting ideas for that. I hope you can take this kindly, as I mean it to be, and try to implement it in game.
Lastly, my biggest "thank you" goes to Zazhia. Here:
THANK YOU
You were one of the last friends I made on this game, and certainly one of the most important. You're a great roleplayer and a better person, and I'm sorry for all the times I've upset you. You helped me when I most needed it, and I'm very, very thankful for that. I'm very glad we'll keep chatting (I hope regularly), and I wish you the best of luck with your life, expecting it to be as happy as it is now, and that your boyfriend loves you as much as I regard you as a dear friend.
Now, done as I am with thanksgiving (*snicker*), I'll proceed with all my characters settings, explaining what they'll do from now on:
- Mishka: More a hermit than a blacksmith now, she travels around the Dome, trying to find a comfortable forge where she can hammer some metal into the perfect blade she's been after for so long. If you're lucky you might see her sometime, willing to teach you.
- Jasyus: The bulky Akkaio left Hydlaa in the middle of the night, rushedly, and leaving all the money he had to his cousin, Mishka. He's nowhere to be found, not having left a note or given an explanation.
- Jecewie: A small note on one of the beds at the Sanatorium would tell Doctor Lesiros how she, heartbroken, left to look after her missing husband and son, healing and tending any wounded being she finds in her way. Her amulet of Xiosia lies beside the note, with a smaller note: "Someone might need it more than me. I already know She's with me."
- Kharrt: After having a problem with a homophobic Ylian [not an actual player], he left the city to try fortune somewhere else. The last time he was seen he was picking flowers on the ruins near Gugrontid, to then leave towards the Bronze Doors.
- Levai: The feral menki is now living happily with his grown-up son in some long-forgotten forest.
- Jocas: With a heavy heart, he took the ring off his finger and gave it back to the love of his life, Zazhia. Love words, a lifelong promise and a tear sealed his fate. He's now serving the Octarch's militia down in the Fifth Level, and his heir, Saegos DeFaye, is with his grandmother and great-aunt, learning how to become a kind man, as his father is.
- Any other character I might have: They went missing misteriously.
